But when I said I needed him to show me love. That I couldn't go through years again without sex, without intimacy, without affection. I couldn't live in a platonic marriage.
I guess that was the deal breaker for him because he then offered to sleep on the couch. Which just tells me, he has nothing to give me. Absolutely nothing.
I guess it's better to know now. Then go years barely having sex. I can't do it anymore. I just can't.
And clearly showing me affection, being intimate with me, having sex with me, just isn't something he wants to do with me, his wife. Not at all.
It just must be fucking horrible for him to touch me.