I knew when I started this blog that it would be hard not to discuss my illness...and as much as I don't want to give it so much attention in my life... it's still there.
I've read many blogs over the years, and many that revolve around people's illnesses, and I didn't want to do that. There is so much more to me than having chronic Lyme Disease.
Unfortunately, sometimes it's all I think about, especially during treatment.
There are daily reminders, of all the things I can no longer do. It's hard to forget. Truly it's a delicate balance between trying not to give the illness too much power over me.
These last few weeks have been a struggle. The constant pain, the weakness, the lethargy, spiking fevers, etc...it gets old fast.
The treatment adds...nausea, muscle and tendon pain, and a life that revolves around taking medication.
Honestly I don't know how people do it.
So here's the deal...
I'm not going to give the disease all my energy. Yes, there will be good days and bad days, and days I need to discuss it, but I refuse to give it all my time.
There are so many more important things to discuss...